I’ve felt so disconnected from Him lately, left with a sense of apathy in my relationship with Him, with others, and with this world. It’s like I’m sitting in a stagnant pool of Holy Water, which I know is a conundrum that can never exist. Either I am perceiving the water as stagnant due to my lack of movement, lack of following Him, or I have placed myself in a separate pool of water, soaking in algae and filth and thus allowing myself to absorb toxins instead of taking-in all things holy and blessed, given freely by the fountain of life.
I acknowledge that the Creator Of The Universe has fearfully and wonderfully made me. It is He Himself who has placed me in these holy waters and provides me with all the nutrients necessary to bear the good fruit for His glory. I haven’t left the pool; my roots have just been closed-off to absorbing His goodness surrounding me, because of my lack of movement—- lack of pursuit for Him.
But the waters are rising, forcing me to readjust. He did not place me in a shallow pool and fill me with shallow faith, nor does He desire me to tread harsh water restlessly while He selfishly holds the lifesaver.
No, He has placed me in waters of mercy and grace and filled me with a deep faith, driven by the core of His love. Harsh waters? –They will come, but HE IS MY LIFESAVER. It is He who I will cling to. It is His love I will absorb. And it is fruits of goodness I will produce all for His glory and honor.
I will not let the weight of the unknown drown me. I will not let the water go dormant. I will keep moving.
